I couldn’t sleep at all last night. I was pretty happy and energetic during zumba and probably 10 minutes after I just felt super depressed. I got home still feeling blue and even cried. I rarely cry! Now I am not sure if this has anything to do with Whole30, or because I have been overwhelmed lately. My mom has been diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer. She already had her surgery and last week she started her chemotherapy. Every time she’s nauseous or has been throwing up, it’s been breaking my heart. Or when she cries, I tear up a little bit. I try to be as strong as I can, at least in front of her, but it’s starting to become difficult. Like I said I rarely cry…I don’t even cry at sad movies/books and always thought I wasn’t normal because I wouldn’t cry…and then last night I cried. I tried to sleep but just kept turning and tossing. I even tried to put guided meditation on but my mind was just in another place. I ended up just sleeping on the couch and I think I fell asleep around 3AM and woke up at 7AM.
I went to the gym in the morning to escape from reality I guess you can say. I did weights today. After the gym I went to get my blood drawn for my thyroid levels.
For breakfast, I made myself some breakfast. I just made scrambled eggs with green peppers and butternut squash topped with a bit of hot sauce. I also had coffee with the Califia Farms coffee creamer and cinnamon. I realized that I am not liking the cinnamon in my coffee. I enjoyed it the first time I did it, but not anymore.
For lunch, I just made myself a salad with chicken. It was yummy and satisfying. Also snacked on some grapes.
By dinner time, I was not really that hungry, but decided that I need food in my system either way. I haven’t gone grocery shopping yet, and just wanted to use up what I have left in the fridge since I did go a little overboard shopping last week! Oops! So I made eggroll in a bowl. I am thinking that I can eat it with eggs in the morning for breakfast! Or possibly just save it for lunch tomorrow. I have a lot of leftovers!
Overall, I was pretty busy throughout the day so I wasn’t really thinking about food. Just was making sure I was drinking enough water. I didn’t feel tired throughout the day despite only getting almost 4 hours of sleep. I am just hoping that I will sleep a lot better tonight.